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April 24th, 2006 at 7:36pm] |
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wow, i am having one of the worst fucking days ever. not only was school today, but all different pressures came along with it. so due to all "MY" procrastination, i didn't make it into drivers ed at the school. so it all MY fault. so now it MY resposibility to find another place or i don't get my license. so then i feel like i did horrible on my spanish speaking for the regents today. oh, and before the school day even starts, my mom also starts giving my crap about how i need to get my report card fixed AGAIN for the third fucking time because the fuckin school can't stay organized. and then i get home and my family is being freakin annoying. my sister is screaming, my brother is acting fucking stupid making wierd sounds trying to be funny when ITS NOT. and then my dad trys talking to me about stupid stuff & i am NOT in the mood to talk WHAT SO EVER. so i tell him to SHUT UP. then we celebrate my mom's birthday. & all the sudden i hear them start singing happy birthday to her & i get up in time to be for the last line. SO NOW i am inconsiderate RUDE person. so it all MY fault. and my family doesn't even want my to stay at the table to eat cake and open presents. so now i feel unwanted. and i want this fucking rain to go away. now i am leaving to get out of this fuckin house with erin to get my mind of things, even though i am exhausted. so good thing i have this journal so i can take 5 minutes and write about how pissed off i am . thanks for reading, pz.
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| Spring Break |
[Thursday
April 20th, 2006 at 12:19pm] |
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Yea so its spring break, and i would say mine is going pretty well. Lets hope the weather stays nice out like this. this is my favorite type of weather. not to hot or cold. just perfect. it just adds another positive touch to my week. I basically been out and about hanging out with people. There is just not enough time in a day lately though. I kinda feels like i am on summer vacation, i wish right? haha, but I am really going to miss all my senior friends next year. it really won't be the same. I wish i was graduating with them. But i gotta live it up next year being a senior, woottt. i hate it because it took my two years of high school to figure out what type of person i was and who i like to hang out with. now a lot of those people are leaving. it sucks. i mean i hope to stay it touch with them , but it won't be the same not seeing them everyday. i'm scared to say goodbye. but i don't want to think about it anymore. i am gunna go and finish getting ready. i am going for my dress fitting this afternoon for prom! YAY. i am excitedd. it finally feels like it is coming together. the pictures, the date, the afterparty. ahh, i can't wait. but i have to. but gg, laterr .
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[Sunday
April 9th, 2006 at 5:47pm] |
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so i went to NYC yesterday all day on a trip with everyone from the musical. and i had an amazingg freakin time. it was my first time being there so i was really excited. i think that is part of the reason why i had so much fun because it was all new to me. but i am definitely looking forward to going back again sometime. we all got to see the broadway show rent. it was AWESOME. i wanna go see another one in NYC too. even though it was smaller than i pictured, i couldn't imagine my time being any better. ahh, so i basically had an awesome time. :D
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| boredd |
[Monday
March 27th, 2006 at 3:03pm] |
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helloo, i am in the school libraryy sitting next to caitlin ..BORED. loll..i see keith angel kelsey anthony and casey sitting at the table on they other side. I MISS ANYTHING GOES ALREADY :( i have NHS to concentrate on now and freakin SAT nd ACT tests. ugh . well i better go before i get caught. later.
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| busyyness |
[Wednesday
March 15th, 2006 at 2:41pm] |
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so i am extremely tired and haven't gotta a good amount of sleep for the past week. i am able to get around and move lol, but inside i just wanna sleep. & i won't be able to for the next week or so because what really has been keeping me bussy is play rehersal. we are now into night rehersals and its from 5:30 to 8:30 or more. i am a bit stressed, but not to the point where i am flipping. so if i seem mean/rude towards you during the next week or so, please excuse me. i don't mean it. its the tiredness of me coming out. oh and by the way, i hope everyone come to the play showings next weekend of the 23rd :)
i need people's opinion if you read this. my guidance counselor brought it up to me that there was a problem with my scheduling for my senior year. i signed up for accounting, chorus and SUNY spanish (spanish 5). so she told me that account was offered 3rd period, chorus 4th period and spanish 5 is 3rd or 4th. although i don't want to, i have to give up something. i already decided, but i don't know if i made the right choice. my guidance counselor wanted me to give up chorus, but no. i am definitely taking it next year because i enjoy that class. so it was basically either dropping accounting or SUNY spanish 5. hmmm?
although i have no play practice today (yayy break!), i have SAT review at 4:00 - 6:00. i wanted to skip it so i could sleep, but i don't know if my mom will let me. i gotta go try to convince her.
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[Sunday
March 5th, 2006 at 4:01pm] |
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ok ,i tried finding friends, but i only found cathryn. haha, oh well. i am fine with having the ones i got. i don't update enough to keep you guys entertained. you think after mentioning to myself that i don't update enough would get me to update more. ha, i try though.
so on friday i had savannah and sam sleepover at my place. we were up until about three in the morning even though i had to get up at 9:30 anyways for a 10:30 soccer practice. i pulled it off. unfortunately there was no game today because it is our week off. i feel like playing a game right now, but what can ya do.
and i slept over at erin's house last night with sam. we watch this freakish movie about clowns. i am not afraid of clowns, but this movie did make me jump. it didn't scare me to the point though where i am scarred and hate clowns now. it was kinda a gay movie anyways, which is why it probably never made to theaters. but anyways, before the movie we talked for a while about this overnight camp. me and sam wanna go so bad now. erin went to it last summer so she told us a bunch of stories. for example, if you are late to breakfast, lunch or dinner they make you sing in front of everyone. personally, i am a fashionably late person, so i am nervous about this, but not scared to do it. i can just see myself oversleeping in the morning. ahh, haha. & also if you get 5 or more emails in one day you have to go in front of everyone and they seriously pull out the back of your shirt and pour ice cold water down your back. AND no one get any ideas if i get to go to this camp! haha, i asked my mom about it when i got home today and she said she just wants more information about it. which is a good thinggg. i hope i go. i have never been to an overnight camp before, so i am excited for this.
btw, i am also excited to go to new york city with the play people because i have never been to new york city AND i get to see rent too. i think it should be a good time, but it sucks because i have to ask my mom for 60 more dollars for the other half of the deposit to give in this week. but she said it would be a good experience for me, and it should be a good time.
anyways, yay for my weekend? pzz.
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[Saturday
February 18th, 2006 at 5:34pm] |
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i need more livejournal friends to make things more interesting. i may update more often. so those of you that do read this let me know you read this if your not my friend already, otherwise leave me comments of people who have a livejournal or something so i can friend them. thanks :)
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[Tuesday
February 14th, 2006 at 10:05pm] |
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break is in three days, woott woot. i will have to get/look for a prom dress. which makes me nervous, because i really hope i actually get asked. i am definitely excited for prom, but everyone has a special someone. i wish i had someone sometimes.. eventually.
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| winterball |
[Saturday
January 28th, 2006 at 5:17pm] |
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soo winterball is in a few hours. hmm , excited?? yeahh i am kinda. i just got done doing my hair and it came out okay. i have been feeling a little better since my last entry. well, i must go and get ready to dance. kbye.
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| i hate my life sometimes |
[Thursday
January 26th, 2006 at 8:34pm] |
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don't you hate it when you have those days where you feel completely ugly?
.. well i am having one of those days and feel like just crying myself to sleep. kbye .
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| UPDATEE YAY |
[Sunday
January 22nd, 2006 at 5:46pm] |
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yayy i am updatingg because i was talking to keith one day after school during play practice and he mentioned how i am always on myspace and never on livejournal anymore. loll , which is right too. so here:
- this week in midterm week. got an english regents which i have tried my best to prepare for and a history midterm. i am excited next year when i will have this whole week off my senior year, but its worth the wait.
- indoor soccer situation this year has been tough to find a secure team to be with. i am trying to make it through though because i can't go the whole winter without playing. if i dont play, it like a part of me missing, i can't explain it.
- i learned that people need to relax and stop getting angry over the stupidest things. and if something bugs you, dont resolve it in such an immature way. i am not saying you can't be immature, but c'mon, there's a point when you cross the line.
- i really want new clothes. but in order to do that i need a job. and i probably won't get that job until the spring, which it after the play. so i am kinda stuck at this point. i really want two new pairs of pants and some shirts from abrecombie and fitch (love that store).
- winter ball is this coming weekend & i still need a freakin dress. i will probably end up getting it on the day of the dance because i have done that for 2 dances so far. i admit it, i am bad with keeping up. but i cant wait for prom ! i love feeling prettyy.
hmm, okay , i think i gave a pretty decient updation of my current feelings and such. laterrr .
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[Sunday
November 6th, 2005 at 5:14pm] |
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i felt like updatingg briefly after a crazy long time.
school started ..
like my classes even though some are hard .
i love my friends .
got my permit .
just got home from driving with my permit .
i am about to do my english homework .
k bye. :)
i don't think anyone really reads like anymore . but i still love my background nonetheless. anywayss, later.
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[Monday
September 5th, 2005 at 11:48pm] |
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i am bored so i decided to update for a change.
so school is starting soon..more like 2 days (thursday). greatt. i am sure hoping the majority of people are with me on this. i am not ready to focus on shit. ahhh. well..i am looking forward to seeing everyone though. i hope i have nice classes. & i hope the school is clean. junior year..i am definitely gunna make the best of it & make it an easy year as possible school-work wise.
the month of july was slow for me...but in august it really picked up. i met some new, cool people & soccer started. i also felt like i was becoming closer with my friends. i started to see them more in august so i definitely realized i literally don't know where i would be without them.
its late now and i wanna get to bed. i am scared i am gunna get no sleep at all once school starts...i love sleeping in so much <333. lol..anyways, goodnight people.
p.s. vintage layouts created my livejournal layout. they are hott.
p.s.s. let me know where else you would like me to credit please.
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[Sunday
July 31st, 2005 at 8:23pm] |
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sorry i haven't updated. i have really been concentrating on my myspace more (http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=21097410&Mytoken=20050731173358). instead of this. i don't really think anyone reads it anyways so i don't bother too much.
anyways...wildwood was soooooo much funn. too much to type out so you can IM me if you wanna know more.
yesterday was paige's graduation party which was so much fun. i am glad i stayed longer than i planned. i don't feel like type about it either. sorry.
lastly, i have soccer camp this week so i dont think i will be updating at all. i am getting really bad huh? oh well...later.
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[Sunday
July 17th, 2005 at 11:37pm] |
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hellooooo...so this weekend has been okay. but this week is gunna go by so slow since i am anticipating for this saturday for wildwood NJ! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! & i am bringing samantha leigh with me! this is the first REAL vacation i am able to bring a friend for like five days, so who knows how crazy it will be. ah, can't wait!
i went to see Charlie & the Chocolate Factory yesterday with savannah. (wtf this isn't eat-a-vision, i like grapes, dragonflys!..haha) it wasn't as packed as i thought it would be, but we went to latham. the movie was very funny & updated. i liked the movie, but i think i like the original better even though it wasn't based on the book as much. i think the first movie was more realistic. i still liked the movie however & recommend to see it if you want your own opinion.
anyways, i out.
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[Wednesday
July 13th, 2005 at 12:47pm] |
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check out my myspace: http://www.myspace.com/e__lane
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trying to be someone you aren't ; is a waste of the person you are.
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[Tuesday
July 12th, 2005 at 11:34pm] |
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the weather has been getting hotter out which makes the summer even hotter! yesterday i woke up and went on a jog in my neighborhood. when i got home sam asked if i wanted to come over and hang out...of course! so i gathered my things and picked vanna up on the way to go to sam's. when we arrived everyone (sam, anthony, matt and brian) were all by the pool. we all went swimming for a loooong time. i was so pruned. we played games in the pool & it was fun since its basically the only thing you can do outside in 90 degree weather. then people left. sam, vanna and i all went upstairs to get ready to go over to cait's home about 5ish. we were the first ones to get there. we hung for about a half an hour. then josh and robbie finally arrive. god their always late! lol jkk. we walked to the crossing. it was still extremely hot out at this point, but we survived. jackie, mike and jess met us at the crossings. we did some random things while we were there. loll. we headed back to cait's about 8:45. we were trying to make plans for the night. eventually it turned out that van and me were sleeping over at sam's house. my mom picked us up at 10:00 and dropped us off. we went online for awhile then we got ready for bed. we talked for a long time. ya, i am not gunna mention this talk because its personal.
i woke up the next morning to sam's sister screaming for sam. lol. savannah and sam were gone down the street to pick up sam's brother so i woke up with no one there. so i went downstairs. i got to watch some of the price is right on sam's comfortable couch in peace while i was trying to wake up. : ) eventually they came back learning that sam's brother missed the bus. next we ate some breakfast. then it was pool time again! we hung out in the pool more and i got some sun finally. i had to leave at 4:45 pm. after coming home (ughhh lets just say i hate my parentss moody swingss), i was relieved to finally get out again to go to practice some soccer. courtney, michelle, me, coach and the coach's son were there. i was happy i went. it was a fun time to touch the ball around and brush up on some skills. i went home about 7:30 & ate dinner. then i went swimming for awhile with my sister. now i am here typing about the past 2 days. hope you like it.
i feel like everything i do is wrong.
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[Thursday
July 7th, 2005 at 10:28am] |
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right now i am eating breakfast/ blowing up balloons because it is my brother's 14th birthday today. i can't believe he is already 14 & going to high school next year! geez. he is still sleeping, but i am up & showered for once. i normally have been getting up around 11:30 am or later. my grandparents and cousins are coming over today to celebrate from my mother's side of the family. they live about an hour away. i think they are arriving around noon. it will be nice to see them again.
- i think london got bombed today four times too.
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[Wednesday
July 6th, 2005 at 3:31pm] |
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i forgot to wish everyone a happy 4th of July! even though its like 2 days late, but i didn't get up update now. my forth of July was great. my father's side of the family has been gathering at my aunts house for the past few years. my aunt has a nice house, but we spend all day outside basically. she now has an inground pool with a diving board, which was more fun then her old above ground pool. and a trampoline nearby that we go on. my cousins and i are all growing up! i can't believe it, but we still have the same crazy fun. i am the oldest cousin on my father's side as a random fact. anyways, i spent all day there and then my family met up at my uncle's home because we can walk from there to the fireworks, which we did. crowded like usually because it like the best spot in the world! i love fireworks. they were very pretty and amazing this year. afterwards we hung out back at my uncles while waiting for the traffic to die down. people were getting hurt this year of something because i saw like five ambulences going by at my uncles. at the fireworks i got pushed aside because and EMS was coming through for someone with the stretcher. geeez, i hope whoever it was is ok. anyways, eventually we went home & i went to bed. lovely day.
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